The Quest

We humans are alway grabbing for something. Feeling that if we just get our share of "what is out there" we will be complete and feel more "Whole".
Often I feel this way but over time I am getting better at practicing being satisfied.
I honestly cannot think of one material thing that I MUST have.
I am an Apple® Computer guy myself. I have an old laptop that still works great so I don't need one of them. I have a new Ipod touch thanks to my love Donna. I don't like it as much as the older models. Oh sure it is pretty but... I like the old ones. Lately I am having real issues attracting money into my life. I just seem to be short in this area every month. Now I am not even talking about extra money here. I am talking about enough to cover the minimum expense of living. What am I doing wrong? I work a full time job. I have been doing what I do since 1982.
You would think I could earn a living doing it. I am a printer. Well I am an all around communications dude. I can visualize anything and create it on paper. I can do all of the necessary things to get it ready to be printed and I can even run the press. I can do it all. I am a one stop man for anything that needs to be printed. I have only worked at 2 companies in my life. Is that the reason that I am earning a substandard wage? What do you think? Am I in the wrong line of work? Perhaps a change is needed? No, a change "IS" needed.
I have always been interested in God, the Universe, the unknown. I have always wanted to know how to use the Universe to my advantage. I have sought it out in every possible way. From psychedelics to religion. From meditation to yoga. I have made incredible leaps in regards to what I believe. I have learned one thing. A new car, boat, house, woman, or anything else will not make me feel whole. I know this because I have all those material things. It has to come from within. If I don't go within then I go without. The obtaining of ones desires never quenches the desire for more, more, more. In fact it may make it worse. I am happy in life for the most part. Once I let go of this issue I have with regards to attracting money I think I will be able to rest. But then again, I am human and humans are always on the Quest for more.
I wish to get off this quest. Today I will stop thinking about where the money is going to come from and will focus on being greater and greater everyday.
It certainly cannot hurt.